It's hard to describe the what I felt when I read the map that Isabel Faith Abbott made of my hand. As I've written before, I could only read a page at a time, it was so searingly accurate. And I'm usually a gobble-it-down-with-eyes-darting kinda gal. But let me tell you, it was so beautifully written it was like receiving a love letter. Actually, a massive love symphony, composed just for me.
So, if I had to describe it in the simplest way possible, I'd say: LOVE.
I love the way the reading was conceptualised as a map. It was all about movement, growth, conversation between different aspects of who I am.
I love the way the reading identified who I am, what my yearnings are, and the tug between the two. I especially love the invitation to consider whether my life's journey needs to be an either/or proposition. I love how the journalling prompts that accompanied the reading gave me a starting point to explore this further.
I love how the whole process, even the logistics, was infused with love. Isabel's gifts were obvious but it was also palpable that it's a privilege she does not take lightly. This woman can see though the lines in your hand through to your very essence. Every conversation was like a love letter and, despite the vulnerability require to receive such a potent offering, I safe every step of the way.
I love the way my reading captured as a moment in time but not for all time. I didn't know that the lines on our hands change as we do. I will most definitely be asking Isabel to map me again in a few years, as my life and questions change.
A this point in my life, I feel like I am standing at the entrance to the underworld. This is not a sinking into depression although it may require some hermit-like behaviour (something I welcome). It's about the willingness to go as deeply as possible into the mystery. It's about sinking into the writer's life, surrendering to wanderlust. It's about returning to my self, knowing that I am changed but will always be, at my nucleus, me.
I am so grateful to have this map to guide my way.
I am free. I am safe.
P.S. With Isabel's blessing I will be sharing one of the journalling prompts she made for me as part of the Reverb14 experience. Be sure to sign up so you don't miss the magic!